I…..
I drift aimlessly in times of hopelessness.
I search tirelessly for meaning and truth…
Yet I find no direction.
I bleed quietly in times of loneliness.
I yearn to find warmth and happiness…
Yet I allow it to elude me.
I seek out visions in times of want.
I gaze through the blackness that envelops them…
Yet I cannot see the light.
I listen earnestly in times of silence.
I search for familiar sounds…
Yet I cannot penetrate walls that surround me.
I reach out frantically in times of despair.
I seek strength and compassion to enfold me …
Yet I find nothing to enwrap.
I cry out desperately in times of solitude.
I pose intense questions that demand answers…
Yet I know there are none to be found.
I reach out in these times of confusion.
I dial your number one of a familiar and calming voice …
And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity … remains intact…..a Friend.
VDS
5-9-07
I’ll be back ….still riding the roller coaster and it is not very good right now.
May 9th, 2007 at 12:43 pm
Hi Vickie,
I love your “emoticons”. You must be Walker’s friend he’s written about, did you send him, what was it again, grits? I’m falling asleep here, so I’ll say “goodnight”, enjoy your day!
I just wanted to say a quick hello. before I crash for the day.
May 9th, 2007 at 4:11 pm
So beautifully written, yet sad, Ms. Vickie. I’m terribly sorry things are still not going well. You’re in my heart and on my mind. Yes, what would we do without friends to reach out to, and gather us up in their arms. God bless you all.
May 9th, 2007 at 6:10 pm
I agree with Sally, that was extremely well written and very poignant. I could feel the pain of what you are obviously going through in every word. I hope the roller coaster will soon slow down so you can get off and go on the carousel….something calm and soothing.
May 10th, 2007 at 4:37 am
You will be in my prayers that made me cry it was sweet and sad and real and I just want to hug you
May 10th, 2007 at 10:11 am
Vickie
I am at a loss for words here. I can only imagine what you are going through. This post has touched me deeply. It is so full of feelings and emotions. I just hope the down cycle is soooo very short. Take care.
May 10th, 2007 at 12:25 pm
Vickie,
What a touching passage. You are always in my thoughts. I pray you will always find a way to find the joy in life even when you are in a downcurve.
May 10th, 2007 at 5:14 pm
I asked my new boss why so much happens to us at once…and he said it’s because we are the ones who can handle it. I’m not sure about that but it got me thinking about “A Stroke of Luck”.
Take care of you.
May 10th, 2007 at 11:34 pm
Your poem sounds sad. I hope you’re feeling better soon.
These emoticons are too cute. My favorite is the little frying pan. There are a few people I would like to do that to.
Cheers,
Josie
May 11th, 2007 at 3:18 am
I can describe you in one word V.
—–> AWESOME
May 11th, 2007 at 3:22 am
(my comment above was cut short for some reason…so here it is again)
Wonderful post.But the one before this one touched me deeply.Especially when you said
QUOTE:”You’re going to have to choose between a lot of things in your life. Sometimes it will be an easy choice, sometimes it will be hard. But remember that you’re not alone and everyone goes through what you’re going through.” END-QUOTE
Sometimes I wonder if there is anybody else that can fully understand the pain that I mask with laughter and a smile,when inside I’m so distraught….but your so right.I have to remember,I’m not the only “someone”that is in my shoes,or in an even WORSE situation.
Your words of wisdom are so appreciated.Just thought you should know,hun
Love Ya!
May 11th, 2007 at 6:49 am
I just wanted to stop in and say hi. I am really grateful that you found my blog. I have been trying to find my way back here to see how you are making out. The first time, I stumbled across your blog while surfing blogs of other friends and couldn’t remember how I got here….I hope you don’t mind but I will add your blog to my list of links on my blog, because I think anyone that follows me here will feel as blessed as I do to read your posts. I am so sorry to hear things are still such a struggle for you…just remember in your dark hours that we are here praying for you, and sending good thoughts your way. Hang in there…you can do it!!!
May 11th, 2007 at 9:35 pm
As others have said, there are a lot of us out here who are with you in thought and prayer as you fight Missy. You are an amazing lady.
Thank you for your congratulations on my recent marriage & the comments you have left for Pat & I.
May 11th, 2007 at 10:59 pm
I am praying for you and you are always in my thoughts Vickie. Call me if you ever need someone to talk to.
May 12th, 2007 at 12:01 am
Beautiful (and I do mean beautiful… not just lip-service) Vickie.
sigh.
Hi! It was soooo nice to see you. You have no idea.
May 12th, 2007 at 1:10 am
No road is smooth, without its bumps.
No life is free of agnst and frustration
The only thing that the is for certain is that life moves forward bumps and all.
Brave are those that don’t lay down but reach for the dawn of the next day with a smile and hope for a bright tomorrow.
Have a nice weekend
May 12th, 2007 at 2:43 am
Just poppin’ back in to see if you are ok….of course you know I’m one of your biggest fans,
T.
May 12th, 2007 at 3:13 am
OOPS,one more thing….I am STILL laughing my butt off at the PMS post.All of it hit it right on the nail.I think it should be mandatory for every man to memorize that stuff,and then take a test (like for your drivers license or something).LOL Get certified in handling us on PMS.
Oh,btw…Rayven had lil precious A’million on Tues..4 lbs.-14 oz.’s.Tiny,but healthy as a horse.I’m a proud Mee-Mee!!
Just love spreading the joy!
Huggggs!!
May 12th, 2007 at 6:08 pm
Hi Vickie
Love the new look, so perfectly pretty. Your words leave me breathless. I am glad that you have a way to express yourself and relieve yourself of things that are sometimes just too heavy to keep inside. Somehow purging makes it a bit lighter, though it still leaves us in a state of confusion or dispair. Whatever is the source of your sadness, I do hope that it gets better for you, Vickie. I am sending my blessings your way along with a ray of sunshine. Hope, you can catch it. Take care. Dawn
May 16th, 2007 at 11:48 am
May love envelope your being as my thoughts go your way.