Some days, some hours are more difficult than others…
Is something wrong with me
Will it ever go away
Is something wrong with me
I hurt inside
so full of anger
never any pride
Is something wrong with me
I laugh
then I cry
I hurt with a pain
sometimes I want to die
Is something wrong with me
running wild one minute
hot and cold are my emotions
creates nothing but confusion
for me and everyone else too
Is something wrong with me
these are all things
never gone why me
I laugh
I cry
depression is very dark
Is something wrong with me
these thoughts just keep on
and all the pain comes
just more and more
day after day
Is something wrong with me
will it ever stop
one day it will all stop
but then there will be
a very dark place.
VDS
8-21-06
August 22nd, 2006 at 3:18 am
What a sad, albeit well writen poem. I am sorry that you have these feelings Vickie, But it is a definate healthy step to let them out.
And NO nothing is wrong with you. You are such a special person. Even though you have faced such suffering physically and mentally, you continue to reach out to help other people. Even this peom will help someone.
Love and Hugs.:love:
August 22nd, 2006 at 3:21 am
No, nothing is wrong with you. There are times in our lives when forces are working against us, sometimes from within us. We have to fight those forces. And if we’re not feeling strong enough to do so on our own, we have to be willing to ask for help fighting the battle.
Just remember, there’s a rainbow at the end of many a storm.
August 22nd, 2006 at 7:22 am
Hi, I went to bed so early yesterday geez…so what’s going on? While this is a very beautiful well-written poem, it’s not the woman I spoke to 2 nights ago…do you need to talk?
Just because I have a new shadow named walker (the metal kind), I’m still here for you, okay? In fact, I can use it to bop someone over the head
August 22nd, 2006 at 7:54 am
That was beautiful and I can relate to each emotion. It is a very dark place to be, but you have a light shining bright within that wants to be rid of the dark place. You’ll have days when you’ll feel utterly empty, but know that it’s OK, that means the anger is leaving and you can then start filling it up with love and laughter. You’ll have days when you feel numb, it’s a way of your inner self of taking a break to regroup and regain the strength to continue fighting. Sending love & hugs!!!
August 22nd, 2006 at 8:33 am
Oh my I often ask this same question but I never get an answer……..
Thanks for stopping by and checking on me.
August 22nd, 2006 at 8:45 am
You’re a super-talented poet, and it was a great poem, but something concerns me. . .are you okay?
August 22nd, 2006 at 9:52 am
Dear Vickie ~~ A great poem, but there is nothing wrong with you as far as being a lovely lady. You have a lot
to contend with health- wise and can be excused for feeling down sometimes. But you can rise above all that
as I am sure you will. Thank you for your comments, glad
you found something of interest. Take care, Vickie.
Hugs, Merle.
August 22nd, 2006 at 11:53 am
nothing is wrong with you. you are human and you feel many emotions that need to be sorted out. it isn’t easy, but you can there from here. one step at a time. one day at a time. i linked to your blog today. i hope you don’t mind. your blog is good and it makes me think hard about things. take care, vickie.
August 22nd, 2006 at 12:35 pm
I think sometimes you read my heart.
August 22nd, 2006 at 1:49 pm
I think your feelings are normal and I am happy that you are dealing with them. Life ain’t always easy, but it IS a beautiful ride.
August 22nd, 2006 at 2:12 pm
I’m sorry you are so sad. *Big hugs*
August 22nd, 2006 at 2:56 pm
There is nothing wrong with you Vickie.:fryingpan:
August 22nd, 2006 at 10:14 pm
There is absolutely nothing wrong with you sweet Vickie.
August 23rd, 2006 at 4:02 am
The faithful side of me whispers sweet words of hope and optimism in my ear.
I try to listen to my faithful side, but when the fear and sadness threatens to overwhelm me, my faithless side speaks loudly and sometimes I can hear only those words of despair.
It’s a struggle, but to persevere is to continue to nourish the faithful side so that it may speak as loudly as the faithless side. So that the calm whispering hope brings peace.
Faith, and hope, and love. For you. Now.
August 23rd, 2006 at 8:59 am
Actually there is a little something wrong with all of us. There are some things that our family and friends accept, those things that make us what we are. There are a few that are a little more than that - those things that we have to recognize, work on, steer around. There are days when we win the battle and smother the demons within us. Some days the demons win a battle or two. The war continues. Then there or those things that life throws at us that saps our strengths and threatens to keep us from enjoying simple pleasures. Facing true hopelessness is a challenge no human should have to endure. What most find is an inner strength, a will to live life with some semblence of dignity, and a stable of real friend that they never realized existed. Vickie, your wonderful talent of expression, your inate ability to translate a jungle of emotions into a peaceful meadow of poetic wildflowers is an inspiration to all of us who let lifes demons steel a bit of ourselves from us. I just hope we provide you with a modicum of the comfort you give to us. With love always - RD.
August 23rd, 2006 at 9:20 am
The sad news is Vickie, there is something wrong with all of us, in some way or another we all feel just like that at times.
August 23rd, 2006 at 9:58 am
The comments say it all, Vickie, you are loved by so many of us. We all have our demons and it’s up to us to fight or give in to them…I think you’re a fighter.
August 23rd, 2006 at 11:06 am
Huge Hugs
Nothing is wrong with you.
Thoughts and prayers for strength are on the way.
Since I am the Cool one I can stand on the side lines and cheer you on..Rah rah rah….
Hang in there!
Get that inner light a shinning, I know it is in there. It will light the way..
Hugs
Love
Bless
August 23rd, 2006 at 11:28 am
Hi again Vickie ~~ Thanks for your comments, glad you like the posts. I hope it is soon cooler for you.
Are you feeling better after all the nice things that
your friends had to say? I hope so. Take care, Hugs,
Merle.
August 23rd, 2006 at 12:10 pm
That was quite touching. You have no idea how many times I ask myself that question when it comes to my relationship with my kids.
The only thing wrong with you is you’re human.
August 23rd, 2006 at 3:36 pm
If I didn’t know, I’d say that poem was written by a young person. As we get older, we accept eachother for who we are. Or we should.
As the sailor so eloquently put it, “I am what’s I am.”