Thursday’s Thoughts | Filed under General
Today is a new day, how do I feel, Great and a thank you for those who have chosen to visit with me here once again. Yes I know most of you were surprised to see that layer peeled away with my last post. I believe many people who have blogs are enigmas and show little of who they are without doing so anonymously. On the other hand I have been slowly making changes in my life and in my writing. I have often searched for the answer to the questions of “Who am I?” “Why in the world am I here?” “Where am I going?” and others but have often came up up empty handed. I have always longed to be happy, always desired to find the meaning of my life in this world, always just searched for answers.
Taking the steps I thought would lead me in the right direction, I have found some very interesting things and interesting people along the way but the most important thing is I increased my self esteem and am comfortable with who I am. I love myself…My life—and my confidence–is much better today. Yes I said MUCH BETTER. What really changed, not many things just small changes. Some were done unconsciously but others were done with great deliberation.
The first thing I did for a very long time and was not even aware of it. I read books of inspiration, books that gave me the hope in areas that I was severely lacking. I focused on my strengths, my talents, and my knowledge. Not everyday is perfect or will be and there are days when I find myself needing to redirect my thoughts for they are not “inspiring” ,”positive” or “uplifting”. I do have days when I have “pity parties”, I give myself permission to have them, that is o-kay but I am not allowed to have them too often or for them to last too long. This is normal behavior. This is ME, I am o-kay. I realized that has always been a problem for me, I care too much about the opinions of others, I still do care. I just refuse to let them run me as I once did.
So I’m feeling better about myself, actually loving myself more and more. This seems to have created an upward or downward spiral…..what I do affects the way I feel….how I feel affects the things I do…..The things I do affects what I do and what others think of me, which in turn affects how I feel about myself. Having said that, I can either spend time either building myself up or tearing myself down. There is no status quo when it comes to my self-image.
I feel very good about myself I chose to be honest with you here and share with you the sensuous side of the Lady I am. This is just another side of who I am. I would like to thank Babygirlbailey for being honest and most of all for being true to herself and standing firm by sharing her thoughts with my post. You, my friend deserve nothing but respect for all for the courage to state your comment knowing you were very much in the minority. I now place you on the pedestal you had me on.
Poor disappointed, since dictionary .com indicates the meaning of the word dis’·ap’·point is Audio pronunciation of “disappointed” ( P ) Pronunciation Key (ds-point)
v. dis’·ap’·point’·ed, dis’·ap’·point’·ing, dis’·ap’·points
v. tr.
1. To fail to satisfy the hope, desire, or expectation of.
2. To frustrate or thwart: “I will not disappoint the confidence you have put in me” (Wayne A. Budd)
Since you are unknown to me, I have no idea if I have disappointed you are not for I will never know if you are a reader here or someone who just stopped by. You chose to hide behind a shield. I wonder how many layers you have to peel? There is only one who has the right to judge and the judgement takes place even with the thoughts, you do not have to write them. I rest my case here.
Life Is Simply Good here, I hope you will continue to visit Our Porch.
And your thoughts are?
April 13th, 2006 at 5:29 am
Thank you for your honesty.
There is nothing more that we can ask than for you to be true to yourself.
This is your blog and we come to hear your thoughts and if speaking freely makes you feel better with yourself then here is your soap box.
April 13th, 2006 at 6:07 am
Honesty never seems to be a problem with you Vickie, that’s a good thing.
Cheers.
April 13th, 2006 at 7:10 am
Hi Vickie ~~ I am glad you are feeling good and loving yourself. I think most
of us have private things we keep to ourselves. So Congrats to you for being
so honest.
Have you read Baby Girls blog? I did
and she is great. Cheers, Merle.
April 13th, 2006 at 12:19 pm
You can’t get rid of me, I’m sitting in the swing trying to find my lemonade that someone took.
I love all your layers and you’re giving me the courage to reveal more of mine. You could never disappoint me…
April 13th, 2006 at 12:21 pm
Some people find shame in their sexual side, which is a natural part of us.
There really is nothing to be ashamed about, it is a very important and healthy part of us, that is how we were made, to enjoy it.
If someone has a problem with it, sadly that is their problem. Maybe Disapointed has issues. If so, I hope they work them out.
I think we have a tendency to put labels on people, especially here, where we don’t always expose ourselves and only write what we want others to know.
But the thing I like about blogging, is that we can explore who are we are through our writing. It has a way of putting things in perspective, and I know I have learned a lot about myself by writing my thoughts and feelings.
Yeah, this is a side to you that we haven’t seen before, but it a part of you that is as natural as breathing.
I admire you for posting this part of yourself. I myself am leary of posting such things because my 15 year old daughter reads my blog. Maybe I need to start another one?
April 13th, 2006 at 12:28 pm
Ms. Vicki, perhaps pedestals are a bit lofty for any of us to be perched on. Maybe one should put their aspirations and dreams up there, and then the rest of us standing at the bottom can help boost each other up to reach them.
You have my utmost admiration.. with your honesty being the most admired.
Thank you for your kind words and understanding.God Bless.
April 13th, 2006 at 3:05 pm
Our blogs are firstly for ourselves so what we post is ours. If others do not want to read our postings they can and should move on. You were being honest, probably more so than most of who regularly post to our own blogs are. I’ll keep coming to the porch.
April 13th, 2006 at 3:57 pm
As Karen stated, you’ve helped me to uncover more of my own layers. I know I asked you to keep this secret, so shoot me, but I posted this morning our conversation of last night. Now, Vickie’s readers, don’t get your hope up - but unveiling sometimes is good for the soul. I believe it has been good for me. So, thank you Ms. Vickie, for being the good friend you are!
So, go read already, and tell me what you think.
April 13th, 2006 at 4:16 pm
Good for you…I think people who try to tell us what to write on our blogs should stay out of our gardens, they are nothing but weeds.
I have a secret blog out of respect for my children but the rest of them can just go whine in a corner if they don’t like the different selves of me…at least I don’t pretend to be something I’m not on my blog…and neither do you.
April 13th, 2006 at 6:13 pm
You never disappoint. I always enjoy the honesty of your posts; there is wisdom–sometimes mixed with humor–in every one.
By reading your posts, I’ve learned it’s okay to let your guard down, to not be afraid to show emotion. To throw your arms back and face the wind and say “Here I am world, this is me!” Thanks for everything you do; for offering kind words of encouragement when my resolve seems shaky.
Hugs,
April 13th, 2006 at 9:49 pm
Gotta be who you are. Who else could any of us be?
Nice post Vickie.
April 13th, 2006 at 10:53 pm
Good for you for being “you”!! Just read your last post and I think you have the knack for writing erotic material, girl. A lot of us think it but don’t know how to write it.
Oh and Karen, sorry hon that was me, I thought it was MY glass but I was wondering about the shade of lipstick…. can I be so honoured as to pour you another one though? Ms.Vickie always has plenty of clean glasses on hand!
April 14th, 2006 at 1:32 am
I think you do have plenty of reasons to like yourself. We all see those reasons.
April 14th, 2006 at 3:49 am
I must have missed some hoop-la here, but being honest about yourself can’t be a bad thing, can it? I’m glad you’re feeling better about who you are, or have become. You’re a very good person!
April 14th, 2006 at 4:55 am
Though I agree with you in principle, I have found that a number of readers assess us personally on the basis of the content or style of what we write in our blog, though they don’t accept it
For me, Vicky… you are the same person before and after reading your post, perhaps I admire you more, now after reading it.
Congrats for the sharing.
April 16th, 2006 at 2:30 am
Your blog is about you and I for one am thrilled that you chose us to share a very personal side of yourself with us, your blog friends.