Monday’s Moods | Filed under General
I once read the first step toward change is acceptance. Once you accept yourself, you open the door to change. That’s all you have to do. Change is not something you do, it’s something you allow. This is something I am still pondering over. I have made changes in my life but I still have things to change. I wonder if I have the strength to make them or will I just accept things as they are now and continue on as is. I am not afraid of change but I think I am afraid of hurting people along the way. I have a tendency to put others before myself and always have since I was a child. Considering that has been a pattern for me for so long, I doubt it is one I will change at this stage in my life although I have been ready to before.
Pondering things the tears flow freely, I ache for what has been and what will never be. I miss him but life goes on. He went his way and I must go my way. Certain things will never be but one thing we will always be, friends. Nothing is more precious than a true friend, I remind myself I will be that strong lady he says I am, yes even stronger than I know myself to be. Will I continue to search for that elusive thing all search for…..love and acceptance or am I truly at last growing content with loving myself. I know I still search for certain things that are missing from my life and wonder will I find them or will I learn that yes, Life Is simply Good. My tender soul wants to give all that I have and all that I can, craving love from those who will allow me to love them . Yes acceptance and love from you is next….the tears continue slowly.
What is Friendship?
Friendship is something that grows through the years
Withstanding feelings of anger, joy and tears
It is something we should never try to live without
A friend you can turn to when in doubt
They can listen carefully and not speak a word
For you would do the same when they want to be heard
A person you can confide in, learn from and trust
This is a friend you, me and everyone must
Be able to have someone just like this
Not a boyfriend to hug, cuddle and kiss
But that person who is so special, faithful and true
The only ones I can think of is just like you
Our friendship is strong, healthy and great
Through the years I see its wonderful fate
A fate of laughs, greatness and fun
We have only have one life to live and this is the one
The past- full of memories that runs through my head
The bad ones we cried and left our hearts heavy like lead
Every moment of life should be so full of love and new
This is of course a Friendship like all are feel they are due.
And your thoughts are …….
April 10th, 2006 at 11:12 am
Friends are precious and it is tough to replace friends. On the other hand, I feel friends come (and go) into our lives for reasons. Still when they go, in a painful manner, it’s tough but there’s a lesson to be learned. I’m sorry for your pain but am glad you’ll dust yourself off and move on. The poem said it perfectly.
I treasure you and I can’t imagine my life without you, you constantly make me laugh and are there for me no matter what. Love ya, girl friend!
April 10th, 2006 at 12:44 pm
I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them friends.
- Aizabel Parinas -
April 10th, 2006 at 4:20 pm
A beautiful poem, thar says it all Vickie.
April 10th, 2006 at 5:34 pm
Beautifully written Vickie.
I’ve realized in later years how precious a true friend really is. I’ve lost some who I thought were friends over the years when I decided to make fundamental changes in my life. But then you meet others and become fast friends.
I haven’t known my girlfriend for too long, but we are great friends and love each other’s company. I have two friends I’ve known since 1980, and we live two doors aprt these days. Thank God for friends!
April 10th, 2006 at 5:47 pm
It sounds as if you are hurting; if so, so am I.
April 10th, 2006 at 7:21 pm
A wonderful post Vicki. I can’t imagaine anyone in their right mind who wouldn’t want to be around you.
You are a very precious and wonderful person.
April 10th, 2006 at 7:32 pm
Amen, nothing is more precious than a true friend, but they are hard to find!
April 10th, 2006 at 7:34 pm
I lost my special friend and wife of over 37 years last summer to death so am in a somewhat similar position. It has been friends and family that have helped me get through these hard times - they are wonderful. I am now starting to think of changes in my life for the future. I’d like to find another special lady to spend the rest of it with as I really loved being married and want that magic back. But, it is a scary thing I am setting out to get involved in!
I guess the thing to remember about change is that it doesn’t have to be great big sweeping changes. Smaller, incremental ones are perhaps safer and in the long run can be just as effective. I have been told to not make any big changes in my life for at least the first year after Annie’s death and will probably do that. But, I have bought some new toys.
April 10th, 2006 at 9:04 pm
Friends are very special.
I have had so many and have lost to many to soon but yet I still make more.
You know who are your close friends are too.
They’re the ones you least expect to be there for you but are.
I do disagree with the first line of that poem though.
We could make life long friends in just a moment.
Like the soldiers that get thrust into war and within days they form life long friendships that are unbreakable.
Great friends are the ones you share your soul with and I see you many here
April 11th, 2006 at 5:40 am
True friendship only exists within childhood.
Nice post.
Cheers.
April 11th, 2006 at 8:05 am
I keep waiting for some smooth sailing - but those unruffled waters always keep getting interrupted by everyday life. Sometimes people cannot handle bad things happening so they simply walk away. I have had that happen with a couple of friends - and it hurts. I tend to view relationships as long term. Not everyone sees life in quite that way. And people do change, sometimes. When you lose a friend to shifting values - it hurts all the more. Hang in there, honey.
April 11th, 2006 at 12:46 pm
Hi Vickie ~~ A lovely post and the poem is very special. Thanks for your nice words left at Herons Nest,
I love your blog, the building is just magnificent and your frangipanni is so
nice. It is a flower I love.
Cheers, Merle.
April 11th, 2006 at 1:11 pm
There are a LOT of changes I need to ALLOW, but how to do that is the question.
April 11th, 2006 at 2:44 pm
I have friends in my life I’ve shared thirty years with…and those I’ve known less than a year…all are precious to me.
You are one of them.