Is it Courage? | Filed under General
Is it courageI wonder what allows me to go on, even when I hurt,
Is it courage?
I wonder what allows me to ask for that help,
Is it courage?
I wonder what allows me to have those cries like yesterday,
Is it courage?
I wonder what allows me to keep pushing those legs to walk,
Is it courage?
I wonder what it is that allows me to accept that help,
Is it courage?
I wonder what it is that allows me to keep trying,
Is it courage?
I wonder what it is that allows me to ask these questions,
Is it courage?
I wonder what it is that causes these thoughts and feelings,
No it is not courage.
It has been said I am brave,
I might have courage
A human emotion, need to get on with life.
A cry cleansed my soul and opened my heart,
Is it courage?
Victoria Smith 12/11/2005 @ 11:25 PM
Just some pondering thoughts and I feel this picture goes along with my melancholy mood. It is a cold dark morning, nothing or no one around the sun is beginning to peak through the clouds bringing light where it has been nothing but darkness. The sun could be my courage but it is casting only shadows not allowing a full bright light to appear. I use a play on words and a lot of symbols and parallels to my life when I talk about Missy and this is just another one.
For some reason just putting things down and out here does allow me to deal with Missy better for I no longer deny her but accept her place in my life. She does have that place, at times a very dominate place she takes while I fight to return her to a more doormat place. No longer can she just be ignored nor can I just pretend she does not exist or deny her place in my life for she is a big part of me and is so like me in the respect she does her own thing paying no attention to me.
With questions come answers, come back pull up a seat set a spell with Ms. Vickie the Southern Bell.
December 12th, 2005 at 5:36 pm
I’ve come to learn that courage is your middle name. Great stuff Vick!
December 12th, 2005 at 5:37 pm
Beautiful photo, beautiful words. You inspire us all.
December 12th, 2005 at 5:42 pm
May God give you strength, may God give you peace, and may God give you courage Vickie, big big hugs,
December 12th, 2005 at 7:52 pm
Beautiful words. Yes, it is courage and strength. If you feel drained, you know you have me (and many others) to lean on. Writing is a wonderful way of dealing with the emotions.
Missy is part of your life, but she doesn’t have to control it. You’re an inspiration to me.
I love you!! *HUGS*
December 12th, 2005 at 8:00 pm
Whatever term you come up with. Call it what you want. But what drives you is nothing but miraculuos to me.
December 13th, 2005 at 12:50 am
Ms. Vickie, I felt every word of this. It’s beautiful. And I will come and sit with you for as long as you wish. Every day - and I do mean every day - you reflect the Light to everyone in your path.
I thank my God upon every remembrance of you. (Philippians 1:3)
December 13th, 2005 at 12:55 am
Beautiful poem, Vickie !!
You are such an inspiration to me and so many people !!
*HUGS*
December 13th, 2005 at 3:52 am
Gorgeous poem. You are a very special woman. Thanks for the referral to Sallie.
December 13th, 2005 at 4:43 am
I’m glad that posting about Missy makes it that much easier to deal with her. I still say that sharing takes some of the weight off our shoulders, and we’re always here to share with Vickie. Together we are stronger than alone.
God bless you,
December 13th, 2005 at 9:57 am
I would like to let you know that YOU are one of the major coaches in my life’s game, motivating and encouraging me to move forward, to be strong, and to SHOW that life NOW is to be lived.
December 13th, 2005 at 10:49 am
YES Vickie, it is courage!!
December 13th, 2005 at 3:55 pm
Beautiful Vickie. Just beautiful.
December 13th, 2005 at 5:19 pm
I really like the new site and the thoughts behind it. Very touching posts. Great job.
December 13th, 2005 at 5:23 pm
Beautiful words and poem! I think it’s an inspiration to all of us who have some challenges to face in our day to day.
December 13th, 2005 at 5:26 pm
I think the Son gives you courage. And you’re an incredible lady.
December 13th, 2005 at 8:36 pm
Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
- Dorothy Bernard
Hang in there Vickie. I know that for me one of the most difficult thing is accepting help from others when its offered, but its a pride thing.
Lean on those who are willing to give support, its a blessing for both you and them.
December 13th, 2005 at 9:21 pm
We’re all holding on to you, Vickie. We love you.
December 14th, 2005 at 12:38 am
I have been rudely introduced to the will to live, and have discovered that it is a fierce competitor to that which tugs against it. Fight it with passion and verve. Our collective strength is beside you.
December 14th, 2005 at 12:59 am
You have more strength and courage than a lot of people I know.
God does not give us anything we can not bear, and if we feel that it is too much, He carries us.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
December 14th, 2005 at 1:18 am
Sweet Vickie - you and Ellen are two of the most wonderfully courageous women I know. You both have that inner strength that is a reflection of your faith in our Almighty God.
I would love to sit a spell with you, face to face, woman to woman. I apologize for not visiting with you here as often as I should - I promise to try and do better. God Bless.
December 14th, 2005 at 1:39 am
Vickie, Im glad you shared this today. We all have fears and challenges in our lives. But something like Missy, you cant fight so easily. Like you say, you accept her as part of you now. And adapt to her demands. Fighting takes alot of energy. You deal with advercity with so much courage, but I know somedays it is harder to live with. I have a great deal of admiration for your strength and spirit. I know it takes alot of courage to let people in, allowing them to see your vulnerable side. I know I dont post about my own fears and doubts. Always try to focus on the brighterside of life. Perhaps someone reading my blog would think my life is pretty idealic and For the most part its pretty good. Maybe I should start to be a bit more open in my writing? Ill think about it.
December 14th, 2005 at 2:08 am
Courage, and grace, and strength.
God doesn’t give us more than we can handle. You’re doing a beautiful job.
December 14th, 2005 at 1:53 pm
You exhibit tons of courage and so many of us recognize that every time we visit you.
December 14th, 2005 at 4:48 pm
Big hugs, lotsa love and prayers from your BFFIWWW. Sorry I haven’t been around. I will be more now that I’ll so much more free time on my hands. Sigh. Keep your chin up dear heart.
December 15th, 2005 at 3:46 am
God is with you, Vickie. So am I. I’m holding your hand across cyberspace.
December 16th, 2005 at 1:33 am
Vickie you are such a wonderful person with a spirit and strength bigger than yourself. Know that even if I don’t stop by every day, that you are in my thoughts. Bless you sugar… bless you.
Thank you for offering up the encouragement. Your words made me smile