This and that Death and Hope | Filed under General
Yes Life Is Simply Good and I do love it but tonight I recognized something that I was ignoring. I was over here reading a post called Death and Hope when I woke up and realized my depression was no longer lying dormant. Yes so many suffer from depression but those with a chronic illness are hit two fold from two directions. I have so many times questioned my physicians with Is the depression caused from the MS, is this just the plain old depression, or is a side effect from the medication I take to prevent the progression of the MS. I am always met with the same answer if we knew that we could treat your depression with no problem.
Being an RN, I know too much at times, too little at other times and then like tonight enough to recognize what was an issue that I had to deal with. About six weeks ago, I chose to stop taking anti-depressants because of the increased fatigue I had been having. You bet the fatigue has got better but I guess this is the price I was paying for the energy.
Tonight many of you are learning something new about me and a very good lesson in life……You learned I suffer from depression. The lesson in life you are learning is something I have heard many time…..Don’t judge a book by its cover……I might be very inspirational but many days I am fighting some pretty powerful battles……..
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23 Things to Always Remember And One Thing Never to Forget
1. Your presence is a present to the world.
2. You’re unique and one of a kind.
3. Your life can be what you want it to be.
4. Take the days just one at a time.
5. Count your blessings, not your troubles.
6. You’ll make it through whatever comes along.
7. Within you are so many answers.
8. Understand, have courage, be strong.
9. Don’t put limits on yourself.
10. So many dreams are waiting to be realized.
11. Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
12. Reach for your peak, your goal, and your prize.
13. Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
14. The longer one carries a problem, the heavier it gets.
15. Don’t take things too seriously.
16. Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.
17. Remember that a little love goes a long way.
18. Remember that a lot . . . goes forever.
19. Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
20. Life’s treasures are people . . . together.
21. Realize that it’s never too late.
22. Do ordinary things in extraordinary ways.
23. Have health and hope and happiness.
23. Take the time to wish upon a star.
And don’t ever forget … For even a day . . . How very special you are.
On a lighter note…..
“The greatest lesson in life is to know that even fools are right sometimes.”
Winston Churchill
So today I will say even when I might be suffering with depression Life Is Simply Good.
January 28th, 2005 at 2:09 am
Ya, you have a very well ballanced approach to life. I agree with you. But it becomes so much difficlt to take the life as it is. No?
January 28th, 2005 at 2:23 am
Depression covers me like a blanket and I feel as though I’m suffocating. After 50 years of dealing with it though, I know that I must and can throw the cover off. I’m still here so far. So are you.
January 28th, 2005 at 3:14 am
It is good to acknowledge what you are suffering from. That’s a step towards fighting and eventually winning that battle. Easier said than done, I should know.
I think you are very brave. Despite this, you are still able to inspire many of us. That shows such a strong character that many of us should learn from.
When you need someone to talk to, I am here. Only an email away.
(((hugs)))
January 28th, 2005 at 7:21 am
I am sorry for all of your suffering. Wish there was a cure for all that ails you. In that mean-time, I send BIG Hugs.
January 28th, 2005 at 8:39 am
Being that I am a three time suicide survivor, you know that I know a thing or two about depression. Hang in there! Life tries its best to bring us down. It deals out pressures to try and break us. But if we buckle down and hold on, we find that we can ride the current and often times wind up in a nice safe harbor or a beautiful tropical isle. I love you girl! 3 weeks until Atlanta!!!
January 28th, 2005 at 10:48 am
I understand where you’re coming from. Depression is always right on the surface whether you realize it or now. How could it not be, with all we have to deal with on a daily basis?! The pain, the not being able to do what we want, people needing us, we needing others, etc., etc., etc., If you ever need to talk, and a shoulder, I’m here. I’ve learned to let myself be on a pity pot when things get too much, and I usually feel better after letting the anger and frustration out. *HUGS* Love ya!!
January 28th, 2005 at 3:48 pm
Sleep well tonight, my sweet. I care. xxx
January 28th, 2005 at 4:04 pm
Victoria, I, too, have had this cloud of darkness over me for now over 30 years…I work with it…I learn from it….some days are good, some days aren’t so good. All in all, I believe it makes us very sensitive to others and that’s a good thing in my mind.
January 28th, 2005 at 4:19 pm
I completely understand where you are coming from. My hubby is have some depression. Makes it very tough on me. This is a great post !! *HUGS*
January 28th, 2005 at 6:19 pm
Many people suffer from depression and it can have many causes. Many times it stems from long term worry about things you can’t easily change. Like jobs, relationships, finances, etc. The source of depression many times is not medical, but psychological and is not really “cured” by meds. It is minimized by coming to grips mentally with what is bothering you and building a plan for resolution. It is not always easy to identify the stressor(s), but that is first step. Once you honestly talk yourself through the heart of the problem, you can decide what action to take. I have anxieties about my parents, who after many good health years, are getting older and more fragile. I realize that they aren’t going to live forever, but anticipating that day scares me. It is something that I have to reason out in my own mind. And then my daughter may be off to college in a year and a half. I worry that I won’t be able to fill the void when she isn’t here daily, and won’t be needed as much (a parent’s worst nightmare). I could go into depression from the anxiety attacks from thinking about those fears, but it’s not medication I need for depression, it is acceptance and peace of mind that I need and have to resolve myself. Meds treat the symptoms but not the cause. Anyway, good luck and remember to pray because God will not let any believer face more than he or she can handle. Have a pleasant evening.
January 28th, 2005 at 7:16 pm
((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
-G
January 28th, 2005 at 8:16 pm
*BIG HUGS* Vickie. You are brave to confront your depression head-on and deal with it.
You’ve inspired me many times and I know that I’m not alone.
January 28th, 2005 at 9:37 pm
I know how you feel about you meds. I cut mine in half. They drag you down all you want to do is sleep! Hang in there girl. Have a good weekend!
January 28th, 2005 at 10:41 pm
Vickie,
I’m sorry you’re struggling and thankful you understand depression is highly treatable. I can say it sounds as if you’re very present with how you’re feeling. I am not wow’d with copious doses of inspiration but I am hugely moved by how others feel. Wishing you love & light sprinkled with gobs of energy. x’s
January 29th, 2005 at 4:30 pm
Depression can be paralyzing and the meds to help with it can be just as harmful with their various side effects, including the fatigue you mentioned. I stopped taking Paxil and Remeron because of the weight gain. I was willing to have the panic attacks again if it meant I wasnt’ going to gain 40 pounds. We all make trade offs I guess, but the depression can just suck you down into a hole you can’t escape from. Everyone here has already said it so much better than I can, but know that I care and I understand (at least some of what you’re going through) and want someday to meet you. Next time you’re coming through Atlanta, let me know!! You, Garrison and I will definitely get together!!
January 29th, 2005 at 9:09 pm
Oh Vicki, I feel for you I really do! Hang in there and good thoughts are going your way!
January 29th, 2005 at 10:36 pm
Mile High Diva sent me here…and I am so pleased that she did. You are an inspiration! Stay strong.